METASTABLE
[info]whowillirunto

i cant balance and i dont know how to.
parent always say, dont have bf then fail your exam. i told myself i wont let that happen. its me, not you. i dont know how to balance between studies and you. sorry. probably because im not that smart, my result aint that good. i do last min mugging. so end up i make you sad. there's nothing i can do. because i have 2 more papers left and i havent finish studying. like so screwed.

its me not you.


HORRIBLE DAY
[info]whowillirunto

Just a quick post before i start to do my assignment then go for training.

Today i had my quiz. work from week 1 till now. quite alot for a quiz of 2 questions? IT SUCK TOTALLY
the question isnt very difficult but i just dont know how to do. maybe i really need to study more details. blame myself for slacking so much.
exam is only 1 month away and i havent catch up with online lect. totally screwed. i still have 2 assignments and project and presentation.
uni is fun if you can count that studying part OUT.

when i see my friend working, i also want to work. then i can go overseas. why study so much and shorten my own life, probably already shorten by a decade. hahaha then hair losss like wtf. why meeeee. and im a girl. wtf wtf not fair!


i miss my boyfriend now.
whenever i feel so stressed out, i thought of him and i have the urge to cry.
yes im a cry baby. ):

CHOP MY HAIR
[info]whowillirunto
yessssssss. i cut my hair short. above shoulder, somewhere near my chin. very short. hahaa
was hoping that i will drop lesser hair. still drop but i think its lesser or maybe it isnt that visible as compared to longer hair.
i make another appointment  at NSC on 30th nov to consult abt my hair. who wanna become bald! not me. i gt the urge to go to those hair shop, like beijing 101 but no money! desperate can.

do you all think magnetic hair brush will promote hair growth ?
since magnet aids blood circulation and i read somewhere that blood circulation aid hair growth.

i gt so much to study for thurs quiz. shit mannnnnnn..
quit sch!

im an arse
[info]whowillirunto
yes, i know i can be an arse at time.
i apologise.
i cant help it. sometime when i feel the stress i will just go crazy.
cant take stress. maybe that explain the hair loss?

assignment are piling up and i dont know what to do.
deadline planned for myself, but i never complete on time.
i gt so frustrated when my mom say why so tired? she say date too much.
then i'll shout at her, no?! i studied, do work. so many works. cant you see. you think uni so easy?
if can, i dont mind quitting sch. sch sucks!

break
[info]whowillirunto
im sick! having flu and slight fever. roar~
i sleep alot everyday, sleep before 12mn. so why am i sick? ):

random stuffs

heee i saw the updates from tracyeinny.. niceeeeeee i like this skirt.

then i've been eyeing this sandal for quite some time but i resist to buy it.
need to save up for something more impt. hohoho

 the model have nice long legs, i like~

sat is my bro solemnization. i wonder how would be like? so far i can talk to her, just that she cant really understand her english and she speak thai to my bro. then i'll be like  HUH?! catch no balls.

I HATE TODAY
[info]whowillirunto
Today, i cried. not once but twice.

SPORTS CLUB

my friends in NTU are mostly in sports club. not because we want to join but we know each through sports camp. yes only 7 days of camp but the bonding was so strong that i will never forget. In Event comm, bike rally, yvonne was my co. i didnt really know her that well during camp but i know her existence. slowly, we work together and i really gt to know her better, or i can say in depth. her family, bf, sch, her habits etc. she is so sweet to me. we really work together very well. not only her, rebecca, liangpei, jade, jinyu, koksing, wei quan etc. our meetings are sort of formal meetings. everyone is very serious. when bike rally is here, we made it so successful. really feel fucking proud abt it. This is the first time, someone wrote to president of NTU to praise abt NTU sports club national event. all in all, event comm really bond everyone together. even after bike rally, i study with yvonne. different course different modules but still we make sure each of us study. focus. we will buy sweet, choco etc to encourage each other to jia you. I love bike rally 2009 bike crew. i will miss jade alot since she stepped down from main comm and join NTU sailing.

Then again, toons ppl make me sad. i feel neglected or non-existence. they dont inform me when they change their plan. i keep telling myself, maybe im too quiet. maybe i dont deserve to be a gl. maybe i shld have insist on joining programmer instead of gl when my gl force me to join gl. fuck i screwed my own life. my regret for not joining programmer. maybe because my partner is a freshies gl so i didnt manage to learn much. fuck i dont know.

boyfriend, i love being with you. i want to make you happy. im really very sorry for neglecting you during sports camp. yes once is enough. the feeling suck. i cant say i understand how you feel when you receive those reply abt me being tired when you needed me. people make mistake and they learn from it. i will make time for you, i will not do it again. action speak louder than word. I will do what i say, no matter what i will make time for you. we cant always spend so much time together also? like what you say to me also, i shld spend time with my friend. aiya shld talk face to face. im really sorry.

k i need to start studying. tmr start memorising.

STUDY?
[info]whowillirunto
i dont have the mood to study. i keep telling myself, LIYI STUDY. but study for awhile, i'll drift away. keep wasting time.

went for lynette and yongren's birthday party. let me talk abt yongren's party first. i think its abit grand with her dressing up. the dress is so pretty but abit overboard for a birthday party. but she look really pretty in it. for lynette, simple and nice, her friend gt surprise for her which is so sweet. she cried. she looks really good in black. her skin is like snow white, so fair. i like~

next up is nicholas birthday! 3rd oct. :D must make it a memorable one! 

so many birthdays coming, most of my freshies are oct babies. oh noooooo..
holes in pockets. LOL

mellie lets go out! during my recess week.which is from 28 onwards i think.

alright i shall end here, need to study. ):

i hope i wont do things that i'll regret. hope this is worth it.

hairloss
[info]whowillirunto

I just google again for hairloss and alcohol. i have come to realized, each time i drink, i drop TONS of hair. or stress or lack of sleep?
stress is something i cant avoid?  in the article they did say drinking excessive alcohol increase estrogen which cause hair loss. thats in men? how abt women?

read here: http://www.hairlossbuddy.com/6/alcohol/

then how about melissa? she seldom drinks. mellie hows your hair?

that time i did use minodxil? (spell wrongly i think) did help my hair to grow. but it makes my hair oily and causes dandruff. so i stop using it. and my friend told me once i start, i cant stop? because once i stop the hair will start to drop again. i dont really think so because i dont think my case isnt inheredity. my family dont suffer from balding. WHY DO I? hair is very important to girls please. cant imagine i have no hair. wtf! i think i have receeding hairline alr maybe i shld really go back to nsc. ):

www.llcheongskin.com/eng/mc_hair_loss.htm

MY HAIRRRRRRRRRRRRR

i will stop drinking. but maybe wine is exception but moderate drinking.heeee

oh noooooooooooooooooo
[info]whowillirunto
I'm starting to feel the stress ):
so much work, so little time. i need to start revising although it shld be done daily,i didnt. too lazy!
currently i have one group project, one simulated assignment, one essay for my elective to be done.need to be completed by early oct. no time no time!

another thing, i dont know which company shld i choose as my first choice, shld i risk trying to get into exxon mobile or shld i choose another company that has a project im interested in? exxon mobile provide high pay and good experience! advise please ):

met my brother fiance? wife? not sure what shld i call her yet. sometime i still call her as his girlfriend. everything just happen like that. too fast to even comprehend. solemnization will be at our house,26th sept. YES thats like so soon. heard mom is bring them to get the ring today. I think mom is trying to accept everything, the reality. my sis still cannot accept HER. she didnt even talk to her and my sis is so arrogant to say:" she didnt event come and greet, why shld i?" i mean we will be staying under the same roof, why do you have to be like that? theres nothing that we can do since she/ can say my brother refuse to abort the foetus which have no soul. only solution now is to get married. a simple one will do.
i think mom have alot of things going through her mind. 1 or 2 week ago, mom suddenly cried and she ran under the rain. i only got to know it when im back from hall. very shock and heartache to know it. i went to confront mom abt it. she just say, her life is already very miserable and her son is following her footstep. she dont want this to happen. why must god be like this to her? why can she have a better life? whats wrong?
one month ago, we have a family meeting, bro, sis dad and mom. 5 of us, we sat down and talk mainly on brother's issue. mom was telling him abt what she think or plan to do. then she suddenly cried. saying last time her wedding was a simple one. none of her relative came, some siblings didnt even attend. then i know my sis was a accident. mom say she wasnt happy on her wedding day. was very sad to hear that. my mom tried to give us everything. for example my brother, he wasnt well-educated enough. partly because he was very playful. went pri sch, sec sch then ITE. he didnt even complete ITE. went to work, quit and then work at best denki. having high pay like 2kplus per month for a person without any qualification? he chose to spend his money in clubs and pub. take allowance everyday even when he is working.wtf do you think he is doing? he still think its right to do so. as a guy, i think you shldnt be doing that once you are earning. sometime i just feel like slapping him.
then my sis always come home late. dont even give mom money. always say she is broke and claim that she will earn more in years to come. how long? dont know whats she doing to her life. hopefully she really earn big sum. she keep asking me to quickly graduate and earn big money. why cant she do that? yes SHE have expectation for me.
my friend told me that not much company need materials engineers.what am i going to do when i graduate? i dont know. im in deep shit.

theres so much happening.): i just hope mom can cope well.

im sorry for being so playful that i whack your head so damn hard.sorry baby
i'll always be there for you, no matter what.(:

 

CHANG KAY CHEE
[info]whowillirunto
i want to take photo with you and put inside my wallet too!
):
nice photo!
plsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

4th week of sch!
[info]whowillirunto
it seems like sch have just started but ITS THE 4TH WEEK ALR. one more month, it will be CA and deadline for assignmentS. yes with a S. oh not forgetting about project. blast and ballistic protection and up till now, we are still stuck. no idea how to continue and our supervisor MIA. how nice.

anyway, i went HORT PARK to work on sunday. quite pretty eh. they have function rooms where you can book and hold your party there. how are you going to celebrate your 21st? i have no idea. mom say dont think so much first. settle bro's problem first. okay lo. and and was very happy when she say dont mind buying me a car if she strike lottery. yes la. dad also agree but he's a idiot. he ask me to take his nissan sunny then he buy another car. nooo i want a smaller car.cuter.  for example honda jazz or suzuki swift. nice~

mellie!
i went to do my mole again. and its the 2nd week and theres still no sign of the mole growing out. the doc who did for me is your the first doc that do for you when we are there 3 years back. do touch up no need money eh.

i wanna watch movies.
- time traveller's wife
-the proposal
-orphanage
-final destination (3D)

and not forgetting what i missed, harry potter! ): baby you know what to do right. heee
OH i dont have a nicer photo of my boyfriend. or else i confirm plus chop post a newer picture then he will stop complaining about the other photo (he think its very ugly). HAHAHAHA.

i wanna get a fridge for my room! a pot! (if havei really bring in a pot, need to get dishwashin soap) anybody have a small fridge to GIVEAWAY.

): im still dropping hair! omg. shld i go back to nsc to get the spray? shld i? 50bucks eh. i need to save money and stop clicking away online.=X (means online shopping.LOL)

photo of my freshies and the 2 abls during bash. jade and sue. cute right. both of them very cartoon. LOL


"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved."
--George Sand

sweet surprise
[info]whowillirunto
 
After much pestering, i still didnt get him to tell me whats going to happen today, this morning. what i know is, i just have to stay home and wait for ppl to deliver something to me. so i didnt really dare to fall into deep sleep. so once i hear the door bell! i ran down to the gate and guess what? hahahaa its a bouquet of roses! so sweet. smell damn sweet also. love! cant wait to see you in one week time!



some random photos i took from my phone. he is so going to kill me when he see this!!! hahahahahaha :D

anyway, theres a last min disney outing at my house. many ppl but not all that i know because im from toons world for this year. quite sad when they talk being the most spirited and some even laughed about it. i didnt feel good. during the ending of camp, they announce the 3rd runner up instead of most spirited, (which is quite good so we dont have to explain to our freshies whats most spirited) but our banner didnt drop down. suppose to but the string torn when the BL pull it.very sad. my whole heart sank. maybe because im from best world in my freshie year so i couldnt accept being in the most spirited world. shucks.

anyway, school going to start in 2 days. i haven't stock up my stationery, pack my clothes for hall. i must think of what to shift into hall etc. too bad my darling isnt ard to help me. heeee

another thing, my mole is back! i'm going back to clinic to ask the doc to do something! 145bucks not cheap you know. plus the mole look more obvious than before! probably i didnt apply alot of sunblock during camp.oh noooo i make myself look uglier):

i love you and i'm sorry that i always disappoint you.
your love=D

post camp syndrome
[info]whowillirunto
I'm like so lost, dont know what to do ):
which make me miss my freshies so much.
not forgetting my baby(: in thai having his trainings. when will i receive your call again?
my skin are peeling and its very ugly.): i dont think i can wear spag or tank top.oh nooooo
i shld be able to move into single room in hall 11! yayyyyyy

boring post!
i miss nicholas chang kay chee!

hello sexy!
[info]whowillirunto

his side view and his funny finger movement. quite gay
hahhahha i think he is going to kill me.

im stuck at home memorising cheer. kill me pls.

love to be loved by you
[info]whowillirunto

ENJOY THIS SONG PPL!
boyfriend introduce to me and i went to check out the lyrics. not bad eh.

</div></div>
Love to be loved by you - Marc Terenzi</div>

I can't believe I'm standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can't you see

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life!
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light!
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true!
I love to be loved by you!

Your looking kind of scared right now
Your waiting for the wedding vows
But I don't know if my tongue's able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeahi¢Â€Â¦

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life!
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light!
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true!
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you!

I know they gonna say our loves not strong to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we'll give up because of any weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life!
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light!
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true!
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you!

Yes I love to be loved by you!

with all your love inside me, sweet darling
[info]whowillirunto
Everywhere i go - shawn mullins

I'll always take you with me, everywhere I go...

First verse:
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo dooo...
A good bit of me sleeps underneath
In the bed of my soul, lying next to belief
If I toss where I lay, I may turn her away
So I try to fall still, dreaming someday I will
Wake up with you beside me
With all of your love inside me
So when I am gone it guides me on

Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me sweet darling
Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me (Yeah)

Second verse:
A good bit of me keeps to the sky
On the back of a cloud, unaware of how high
If I stay where I lay, I might drift away soon
From the pull of the sun, I am full of the moon
Baby your the one that grounds me
When the sounds of the worlds surround me
Your love, it took a look and found me
Lost and on my own

Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me sweet darling
Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me (Yeah)

And baby I, always try
Looking at life through open eyes
And baby my, dream came true
With the treasure I found inside of you (ooh ooh ooh)

Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me sweet darling
Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me sweet darling
Everywhere I go, you know
I take you with me sweet darling (sweet darling)
Everywhere I go (everywhere, everywhere), you know
I take you with me

MOLE REMOVAL!
[info]whowillirunto
I wanted to remove my mole 3 years ago. back then, mellie and i went to the clinic. in the end, only she removed hers. i didnt. TODAY I FINALLY REMOVE MY HUGE MOLE ON MY FACE. im happy. :D hopefully it wont leave a scar.

anyway, when i was on the bus back home. a weird uncle sat infront of me, facing me. you know that kind of seat when 4 ppl can sit facing each other?. he was singing and mumbling to himself. so quite freaky to me? suddenly he stand up and he fall towards me. i think he did it on purpose. luckily boyfriend pushed him away! (: fierce k.

anyway, SU16 sports camp is ard the corner. we have alr called up the freshies! haha toons world UPZZZZZZ! and of coz bamm bamm rocks too.

shld i stay in hall if i can get a room for myself? HOW.

anyway, theres so many things i wanna buy but i want to save money also. how now ):
my shopping list: =X
*bag
*shoe
*sports Bra
*more fbt!
*foundation+concealer
*deuter bag for camp!
*rose oil! (mellie this is thelink and they increased the price by 10bucks! roarrrr)

lets go shopping~



This face oil helps the effective healing of scars and stretch – thanks to the essential fatty acids, Omega 6 & Omega 3, present in it.

Its rich vitamin A & F contents also work to restore skin elasticity and texture, while helping to slow down the signs of ageing.

Rapidly absorbed once applied on, the Rosehip Seed Face Oil helps make your skin look soft and dewy.

 The face feels firmer and smoother with gradual use.

The Rosehip Seed Face Oil is best used after cleansing and toning, once or twice daily depending on your need.

Adding just a few drops of the oil to the hand cream or body lotionalso helps enhance absorbtion, leaving your hands and body with a healthy sheen.

Love Roses!


love ❤
[info]whowillirunto

"you can't help who you fall for and no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you everyday that you just wanna be with them or just talk to them you never stop trying to make them happy by the little things you say or do because thats what makes your life worth going on for."

totally agree. (:
your presence  is enough to make me smile.
not even mentioning abt the time we spent together.
i think i will go crazy. LOL

love kay cheeeee

P.S. hahaha i purposely use your chinese name!

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
[info]whowillirunto


Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I
K I LOVE THIS SONG!



this is a marshmellow eeyore from disneyland from my co to all the toons world gls.
my co is so loving! haha he told me: i couldnt find stitch eh. hahaha..
</div></div>
21 Guns (Album Version) - Green Day</div>
i wanna make you happy :D

Old age
[info]whowillirunto

When human become old, they develop illness like cancer, stroke etc. some even go crazy. saying nonsense or EVEN WORSE, make life difficult for you by being a hypocrit?

materal grandma. i believe she is berserk. first incident was that she claim that her grand children steal her money. my cousin and ME. she told her children that she wanna chop us up which is pretty freaky. when i heard it, i was like WTF. i didnt even visit her since chinese new year? how am i suppose to even touch her money. nevermind. then after that she ask my mom to safekeep her 20k. so one day, they help her clean and pack her room. she suddenly panick and say she lost another 2k. so my mom use the 2k of the 20k to give it to her. sort of like cheat her first. settled. NOW.she go around telling ppl that my mom wanna eat up her money. when my mom confronted her.. she say that she trust my mom the most etc. NONSENSE ! she really know how to act. my mom is so stressed up by her because she can suddenly turn up at their shop saying she wanna pass more money to her.. to get money. what if she turn up with a chopper? who knows right?  anyway, i told mom, dont think so much. sunday you shall discuss with your siblings and DONT TAKE ANYMORE MONEY. let them settled. all along my mom have been the one forking out the money. even when grandfather is alive.she bring him to doc, pay the medical fees? how abt the rest? did they do anything? NO. my mom isnt the only child. all selfish bugger!

then dad another one. just quarrelled with mom again. he said to my mom: your mother go and die la! heartless dad. he dont think before he talk. no brain. only know how to drink, enjoy himself. i know he care abt mom. we all do, all so worried that mom might collapse again. but cant you show your care in a more proper way? like just now. mom was tired but she didnt rush him to go home and let him continue to drink. tired confirm will show a face right? so dad's friend ask why mom show a face.. he anyhow share mom's story of grandma. nevermind. he got pissed off abt mom and they left for home. ALL HE KNOW IS HIS BLOODY DRINK EVERY NIGHT. AFTER DRINKING, EVERY NIGHT QUARREL. FUCKING SICK OF HIM BEING THIS WAY. i know im very rude to scold him. i have my temper. cant stand him being like this. SELFISH. and and i told him, you cant tell mom in her face, your mother go and die now ! i told him, like  what if i say that to him? NI MA MA QU SI LA.! you know what he say? go and die la. i dont care? ALL words. no meaning to it. when she really die, lets see how he feel. no brains.

i think we need to learn to be selfish at times;
cannot everything we volunteer to do. its good to volunteer but in the end, who is the one who will end up suffering or being tired? or lose out? YOU!
we need to care more abt ourselves, think for ourselves!
dont care abt what other ppl say; as in filter!
some ppl are arsehole. say hurtful stuff but no choice we have to tolerate. tmr will be better!


okay this post is every messy. because im very angry. i feel like killing my dad. like i say before, if you ask me to weigh the importance of mom to dad. dad is nothing. mom is my everything!

anyway, i just came back from cruise to redang. BORING. THE BABU SINGH? BOOKED one restaurant and they make the cruise stink. they are barbarian when they are on the ferry from cruise to redang. everything they do, they want to be first! FAT and SMELLY. theres one lady she was so gan jiong abt queueing up that she grab on my waist so she can stick to me, like being right behind me. so i say! STOP TOUCHING ME! DONT HOLD ME. SHE BLOODY HELL DARE TO SAY SHE NOT HOLDING. THEN WHAT IS HER HAND DOING. NABEI. sometime feel like grabbing my slipper and slap them in the face! i went casino and all i do is eat. cant swim because period came. so unlucky or else i'll swim all i want la! k pictures.

HAHAHA I CANT SEEM TO ROTATE THE PHOTO. THEY DONT ALLOW IT! HAHAHHAA


just becoz i love you (:


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